Missed a childhood friend.....

Yeah it was the day of our Environmental Science board exam (of Bengal Board where everybody thinks it to be poor joke!!!). Though the exam was a pure MCQ joke something happened that day that made nostalgic for a time being. But today I think I should have at least given that "something nostalgic " a bit of respect. It was an hour break , not really a break but a super break (at least for some who were actually studying for the exam :v). I was out of my exam room and I was roaming around with Atreya ( the Springdalians would never forget him for sure ) and Nirban ( another khilli champion). Suddenly I found Antara and Ankita. We had not talked for a long time so we got up and talked and roamed and of course joking around as best friends do. The girl's exam hall was far from our hall. As we were roaming I suddenly saw an old friend. She was the best friend of class 3 or 4. I didn't see her after I went to R.K Mission Purulia leaving behind the fun days of Springdale. It was the year 2004. I don't know whatever I see happening around me from simple to complex things get into my mind and stay there for a long time. Thanks to that weird thing of my mind I certainly recognized the face. It just happened fast. Her mom was there with her providing all kinds of mental strength  (yeah this thing is common to every parents !!!!). I tried hard but I couldn't remember her name. But I think she recognized me. She pointed me out to her mother by a small gesture and smiled. I went into the girl's exam hall where there were huge number of parents and as I entered they looked at me as if I had done something wrong ( wtf !! was it a girl's toilet??? ). I came out at once. I looked at her and thought of at least talking to her. But I guessed that she would think to be weird enough to alarm her mother ( I wish I had better things to imagine !!!). At last I left the without talking to her. It was ,I don't know, a weird experience. Yet it was enough to search for her name and I succeeded through cross referencing. There are some few names which I still remember from that batch which I left from Springdale. They had been there with me from the day we learned to share tiffins among us , play together and of course a bit of fight !!! Suman,Soham , Priyabrata (this guy even connects me through facebook often !!!), Saheli,Sagnik,Rounak,Aishwarya,Sonal,Patrick, Sayantan,Mansit and of course some others (my mind is straining !!!)But when it comes to the faces I can say I still remember everyone. My best friend says that I make a good friend. Close friends were my best things as without them my life in R.K Mission was meaningless. When I go home everyone used to ask ,"How many friends did you make there?" I used to answer," all". This thing was just like the same thing I had to encounter for continuous 7 years of my hostel ; " What is the routine of R.K Mission students everyday?" Believe it or not this was the first thing which I used to expect whenever I faced a relative (mind boggling question.... and repeat whatever you said to the other one). All my hostel life I have been a good person but when anyone betrayed me I became a bad ass towards them. Whatever I did and even if I consider myself a good friend of others, I didn't respect neither the beauty of nostalgia nor a friendship. Springadale assured me a different kind of nostalgia and those friends which I have made there make the feeling even better !!

A Mixed Experience.....

My life has become quite interesting nowadays. The least expected things are popping up from nowhere. And the most expected ones are just taking a stroll in my daydreams. It was just 2 days back when I had a so-called a 'mixed' experience. I don't know if it was good or bad. Somehow I didn't expect it. I saw a schizophrenic patient just sitting beside at Prakruti (@IISc). I had seen the beautiful film named " A Beautiful Mind". Before I didn't have a chance to see a person actually experiencing continuous hallucinations and participating in them as a schizophrenic patient experiences. Imagine yourself with 2 or 3 friends at a restaurant. The general behaviour would be to talk about various issues going on in your life, crack jokes on each other or sometimes how the food was. The most beautiful thing of this hallucination is that as you went to the restaurant with your friends and did the general actions that you would do , the person I saw performed the same actions but there was no one in front of him or beside him. I was actually sitting beside him. He was not even interested in any other persons who sat at a distance from him. But I can say the converse was false. It is because it is not common to see a person doing weird (with respect to us ) stuffs. The first thing I inferred from the actions he was performing was that he was a schizophrenic patient. I would like to see him again because behavioural patterns are something that drives me crazy. 

The tough ask named "FOOD BUDGET" @ IISc freshers......

Today was not an ordinary day for me. Yah I withdrew Rs500/- from SBI ATM and the best part is I almost spent all the money at that bullshit Chinese restaurant. Well 'bullshit' was not the correct expression. The taste was good. This thing doesn't happen to me everyday who tries be in budget of Rs 30/- per meal . Yeah I know man what you are thinking but there are ways by which you can minimize the budget. Yeah you can also make it to Rs 22/- .Well the process is not so easy. An opportunistic observer can only go that far by satisfying the stomach and taste to some extent. Yeah one day I even completed my lunch by spending only Rs 16/-. Yeah it was not so great but decent. But for a guy who eats less that thing may be minimized to Rs 10/- (yeah 'poori' at Kabini , IISc). Well the interesting eating life of IISc for a fresher is really weird. First they are forced to the D- Mess which is a really a mess of uncanny dishes. Then guys sign out from the mess and thinks of keeping themselves inside a proper food budget less than what the D-Mess charges. Well the result is sometimes reversed. The guys never go out without friends and that's the whole dilemma of budget life. The orders never stop short. Their likes find a new texture and of course sharing the courses among the friends become a new attitude. And of course the bill remains the last debate. When we talk about likes , we mean really weird likes. Think of me , I have never tasted lamb meat in my life but when I got there at that (bullshit) Chinese restaurant today I ordered a lamb dish which when served I almost had tears in my eyes( by the  amount it was served and the relative price of Rs 200/-). The best thing is that some of those guys who sign out are really clever. They slip into the D-Mess without showing the mess card to have "FREE FOOD" when the budget scheme falls apart. But there comes the Bengalis. These guys even go a step ahead for this thing. Well the Bengalis are people who like to eat at a cheap price. The Rasgulla of Prakruti of IISc ( @ Rs 14/-) hardly gains their satisfaction. The Prakruti "Samosas" make them cry ( per piece @ Rs 14/-). Yeah it made me cry when I found the bullshit price. My precious samosas ( boo hoo) !!!! Some Bengalis search the place named "Aastha" a Bengali restaurant. Some even help themselves with the help of GOOGLE MAPS !!!! They go their and find their normal ( well this is an exasperation) Bengali food. Some are so much moved by Aastha price scheme that they even subscribe their hostel delivery services. Yeah some of my friends have done it. Sunday is the worst day as the Budget moderator "Kabini" (@ IISc) remains closed and people have to go to Gymcafe or Prakruti or outside. Frankly speaking the food budget for the UG freshers is really a tough ask........

Sachin Tendulkar , the ultimate cricketer

There were days when I used to leave everything aside and see team India play against any other cricketing. I'll continue to do it. But the excitement will be less, the urge for a test match will be less. I can easily say there was no cricketer as Sachin Tendulkar. Not because he is an Indian but because he is the most beloved and the best cricketer of all times. A player of all possible accolades is going to retire from the International Cricket. The most beautiful straight drives, dangerous yet the most incredible cover drives and the most precise timing will remain in my memory at all times. I can say there is only one Sachin Tendulkar. There may be others who may break some of his records but Sachin will remain the icon of International crickets. I can't even forget his expressions after a century , looking up in the sky with his bat directed to the Indian cricket team. You can only be respectful. Thank you Sachin for your display of cricket. It has only made me a hardcore lover of cricket. I can watch those sweeps, hooks and the straight drives again and again.

Why do we exist???

Sometimes I feel if it was all coincidence. The simple sequences of A,G,T,C (in DNA) often confuse me. It always have been exciting to think about these things. How could these small repeated sequences give us our own and only unique identity? Sometimes when I think about the origin of all these things I myself feel that there have been too much coincidences. This feeling often drives me to the supreme being called 'GOD'. Was it GOD? Is he really present? Again I have another feeling which often questions me. Is it possible that our science is not enough to explain these things? I mean you could only guess various things but they might not be correct yet gives enough reason to consider it as a possibility. But we should also consider evolution was result of millions of years. From lower to higher organisms , from simplicity to complexity, from some simple possibilities to a unique selection. Let us take the DNA. I can say that this thing excites me every single day. A simple array to the most complex expressions and development. These things often make me sleep. Really I don't understand much about these stuff. But the complexity it shows often asks me to look beyond miracles of all degrees. What I feel everyday we can only be thankful to the supreme whether it is a genesis or GOD we can only be thankful. I think the state of existence was just a chance not a prescribed process. After huge trials of nature and its components the given time permitted our existence. Whether I believe GOD or not it really doesn't matter but I can believe in the evolution and nature and of course the genesis which is still existent today. Let us think about the  Levinthal's Paradox, how a simple reasonable argument transformed the protein folding into a process but not into a chance mechanism. I sometimes feel like this mystery of protein folding our origin has a similar mystery. I speak of life as an unknown phenomenon which could have been originated through chance alone. And after these chances the genesis became a phenomenon. Let us think of a monkey which is given a set of 10000 letters. Now we instruct it to rearrange them to make a simple meaningful essay. Given enough time to the monkey it might solve the problem. There is always a possibility. How does it do? Let go of the monkey problem. Think of yourself when you were a small child even building a sentence was a tough ask. What about now? Now you can easily build huge stories, essays and what not. Do you now feel that what might be the phenomenon of this genesis? I mean to say the monkey starts randomly and by chance alone it may create a word. After sometime he makes another word. And through these chances the process of selection of letters after letters and words after words might evolve into a meaningful essay. Do you think Nature played the same gamble? I think may be. What we think as a coincidence might have been an array of related processes that Nature might have tried to connect. But then the question comes 'why'. What was the initiator ? At least I don't know.....